Monday, January 12, 2015

Anybody out there?

It's certainly been a while, hasn't it?

While I can't say I miss sitting down to try and write out stories to share, I do miss reading all the other blogs I've followed over the years. It's kind of amazing, looking around now, seeing who has gone silent, taken a hiatus, or made it big. I'll be continuing to play catch-up over the next few weeks and apologize if some of you start seeing my comments on older posts.

I just lost the muse. I'm not really certain if I'll ever get it back. I love sharing the stories from work but having to filter everything for the sake of anonymity gets tiring. I'd love to just be myself and tell a story as it is, link directly to media articles and pictures, things like that. I just, can't.

I will, however, post this update. A lot has happened in the past couple of years. I've been on a few transfer lists, once to balance staffing for specialty units, once to improve my personal situation, and once for staffing drivers. I'm finally at a station where I'm happy. We don't have quite the call volume I'd prefer but my crew is phenomenal. It only took 10+ years to find a crew that doesn't care about my gender. I'm not giving that up until they make me. We laugh every single shift, sometimes until we hurt from it.

There have been some minor changes in my personal life, mostly new hobbies. I still have my horse and he's doing fantastic. We'll hopefully be doing a lot of trail riding this summer/fall. I have 2 amazing cats that keep me amused during the day and curl up on the bed at night. I've been camping (I can't wait to go more often once it warms up). I've gone full retard for a certain MMO I always swore I'd never play.

I've been through a lot that I can't share here without giving myself away. Just know that even though I've been through a lot of stress and hardship, I'm trying to keep my chin up through it all. It's certainly not easy but I'm doing my best. I have 1 close friend that has been my rock the past few years and I don't know what I'd do without them.

 I'm still out there, how about you?

Thursday, June 14, 2012

Still alive

Things have been interesting the past few months. I can't say I'm happy with everything, but I am surviving. The calls at work have ranged from average, to news-worthy. I've been running everything from the daily BS, to large fires, to shootings, to officer-involved incidents. Nothing is sacred. Not for the fine folks that call 911 for non-emergent reasons. I'm still enjoying my station assignment. With the exception of the one person I've posted about already (see my post about losing respect) I really enjoy the company of my guys. We mesh very well, we work together very well. We just happen to have a leader that doesn't listen to us. There are so many calls I want to share but fear losing my anonymity or my cool. Mom always said to keep my mouth shut if I didn't have anything nice to say. Lately, I have to stand by that bit of advice more and more. Have I mentioned that I hate having to censor myself? Nevertheless, I'm alive, I'm doing ok, and I'm still reading other blogs occasionally.